Shaken

Okay... one down.... another... 2? to go.

Today's Chem exam has ended and, I for one, couldn't be more pleased. It was a toughie... a real toughie... Out of the three hours allocated for the exam, I took 2½ hours writing out my answers, going over my answers, crossing out my answers, rewriting my answers, and finally going over it another three times just to make sure that there was nothing more I could do to resuscitate it. It was nerve-wracking. I was literally shaking when I left the exam hall (just on time... another minute and I wouldn't have been able to leave for the next ½ hour). Took the whole day to calm my nerves. All I have to console myself is that my friend said that I did as expected... which I don't exactly know what that means... Oh well... now... next horror to prepare for... Bio exam... ugghh... Animal Development...

Signing Off

Just Around The Riverbend

I look once more just around the riverbend
Beyond the shore somewhere past the sea
Don't know what for ...

~Pocahontas~

Well... that's the wisdom of Disney for you... A few riverbends for me to negotiate... not knowing what's on the other side...

Exams next week... that one I can sail through... haven't actually concentrated on studying yet... but it'll come... it'll come... hehe. Been lazing around for the duration of my 'study' break... but now... when push comes to shove... I'll be buckling down soon and working on it...

The more ambigous riverbend... next year... I wish decisions were easy... now especially... the path ahead keeps changing... and different paths have their different appeals... Which do I choose? I don't know... I've picked one... hopefully it's the correct one... but I don't know... I still can change my mind if I want to...

Argghh... maybe I should just be decisive... pick one and stick with it... but I don't know... what if it's the wrong one? What if the choice I make will doom me for the rest of my life? Still harbouring plenty of doubts... why can't choices be more clear cut? I miss the old days... when parents and teachers made the choices for you and you only had to worry about small things... like what to eat for lunch and so on... haih... yeah, I know... it can't always be like that... we have to grow up... make choices of our own...

Anyway... time to begin... holding my breath... hehe... diving into exam week.

Life Goes On

No more ranting about lasts for me.... at least not until January or February... Hehe.

As always... life must go on. We move on to new and better things and so on and so forth. Still I can't help reminiscing and wondering if I had done anything different, would I be where I am today? Would things be better or worse? Yeah... I know. We only get one shot at life and what we've done, or chosen to do... that's what's happened and there's no undoing it. Still... there's something to be said about the multiverse theory... to think that there's a copy of you in another dimension who made a different choice and is living a different life... total crap I think... but some people subscribe to it.... I must be delusional though... typing it out here.... typical human arrogance... thinking that the world revolves around yourself.

And anyway... as I've said, Life Goes On. I went to Gurney yesterday... 'chaperoning' my brother and watching Prestige.... quite a nice movie... excellent presentation... but the story gives me the creeps. I mean... one guy killing other people and another guy killing himself time and time again... ugghh.

I'm bored... it's only the second day of the study break... the first day I'm stuck at home and I'm bored... Finals are in 7 days.... still no mood to study.... as usual.... last minute kinda thing... still.... it works.... so... what the hey.... After finals.... months and months of boredom... I wonder how I'll pass the time...

Anyway, I'll leave you with pictures of my bio class... as promised...

Last Classes

It's been so fast. Thursday was the last day for my chemistry class... and the Friday bio... It was quite fun, the teachers were not as rigorous as usual and they had us take group photos. All in all, it was was fun but a bit depressing. That was probably my last class in INTI. I had just gone there.... it seemed like yesterday... and now I'm leaving it already. Submitted my university application yesterday. Now all that remains is the finals next week. 31 October and 2 November... then that's it. Sayonara INTI. Oh well. We can't be stagnant can we. Hehe.

Anyhow... yesterday I went for the Editorial Board Appreciation Dinner. It was to be my last time. Another last. It was very fun. The best part... everyone got stuck in traffic jams because of the rain. So Mr. Liang was late, Ms. Wong, Ms. Wong, Mr. Wong and Mr. Wong were the latest. We waited for them until 9 and had just started when they arrived. The cameraman... couldn't make it. His car stalled. So... no pictures. I had a hilarious time... laughing with Ms. Mary Ann and Pn. Ang and Pn. Low. Very interesting. One time... we laughed and laughed until tears came... Laughing at Ms. Chan's eccentric habits actually. Man that joke was funny. I just realised though. This is definitely my last... I no longer fit in with the little kids. I did... when Matthew, Mark and Asher were around. Those were people I could understand. After that... I don't really know the rest anymore. It's like they're on a whole different wavelength. They talk differently, they joke differently. I just don't belong. High time I just moved on. Leave them to do things in their own way. I think I was just pushing myself last year when I stayed back one more year to finish the magazine. I had lost all the familiar touchstones that I had back in the day... and I just realised it. It's a sobering thought. Knowing that you're not needed... and even if you are... there's nothing you can actually do.

Anyway... sad thoughts aside.... here's a picture of my last chemistry class... Bio class pics forthcoming in the next post... I haven't got them yet, hehe.

Like A Bedraggled Rat...

I went for badminton today... played for two hours... and then they decided to go hiking before dinner. So... we hiked. A long, arduous climb up many many flights of steps... reaching the top. I had thought I was gonna have a heart attack and my legs were going numb. I was the second to reach. 1 minute after Jun Lin... man... he set a fast pace. Anyway, it then chose to rain... All the way down, pouring, soaking, drenching rain. I had thought I'd reach the bottom reasonably dry... but then... it came down harder... The ironic bit... when we got down the hill, it stopped. Wonderful. Just wonderful.

That's me... at the bottom of the hill... soaked to the skin.

Signing Off

Awards...

Just the other day, I recieved my first ever award from INTI. Surprise, surprise... it was an award for academic achievement. Apparently I was eligible for a Certificate of Merit for having gotten a minumum 70& average (I got 79.18... just 1 more percentage point and I would've gotten a Certificate of Excellence... boohoo... :-)) and taking at least 12 credits for the semester. So... we (those who got the awards...) all dolled up for the ceremony. Thirty minutes of ceremony and they expect you to dress up in formal shirts and so on for the whole day. Sheesh.

Someone (:-)) said I should post pictures... so here it is... the stars of Biotech. L to R: Caroline, Natasha, Patricia.... and ... yours truly.
And this one... All the Certificate of Merit winners.... with the addition of one Certificate of Excellence winner who didn't realise photos were being taken :-)

Decisions... Decisions

Why is it that decisions always seem to get more and more complicated as you go along? It's like... when I started this course... I made a big decision... to study Biotech... everything was just fine and dandy... up until now... then a bigger decision... which university to choose? After that... which major to take... then what courses... then where to stay... then how to budget... then... and the list goes on and on... it seems that everytime I make a decision, another four questions are raised.

Anyhow... back to the briefing on updating and so on. Tomorrow... Bio test 2... and Chem quiz 2... after which, we'll be done with the minor tests... Major exams at the end of the month. Next week will be a busy one... I forcast 5 lab reports due on Friday with a big assignment due on Wednesday...

Signing off

Ah Sweet Rest

T'wasn't much of a rest... but the weekend was quite fun... went swimming and relaxed and so on. I had a huge buffet breakfast and well... okay... hehe. Compared to the weekends before, this one was very much less hectic. I had fewer things to do... so can just relax and forget about most things.

It seems like a pattern is forming. The Friday before the Science camp, we were late for Clarissa's party. This time, we... well actually 'they'... I wasn't originally going. Anyway... was supposed to watch a movie at Gurney... Ben and I hadn't had tickets... you see... it was a last minute thing... us deciding to go... anyhow... the whole point of it... we were kinda late... everyone was rushing us and so on. We made it in time... but only just. Anyhow... the rest of them watched 'Rob-B-Hood'... which I thought was a very silly show. The original plan was to accompany the rest... but on the way up... I saw 'The Devil Wear's Prada'... so... we ditched the rest. And looking at it this way... most of them paid RM10 for the Rob-B-Hood thing... we paid RM10... for premier class tix. That was cool. And the show was great. I really liked Meryl Streep's acting. The character was fun too...

Saturday, I signed up for IELTS... luckily I was informed that I needed it on Thursday... otherwise I would've dragged it on and it would've become a problem sometime later. It was quite last minute... only 6 places left... 'Phew, that was close'.

Signing Off
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